Tuesday, October 28

There Will Be No White Flag At My Door

lost cause: a defeated cause or a cause for which defeat is inevitable; A cause, attempt or effort that is hopeless or futile:

There are those who would say that hope is the first step on the road to disappointment. There are those who would argue that hope is a poison, something that only prolongs your torture. There are some poor and despairing souls who would say that hope will kill you slowly.
Maybe so.

Maybe one of these days I'll look back and see all this time that I have spent hoping and see that nothing has come of it. Maybe one day I will look at you and see that you have not changed and that you will not change and wonder what had me so hopeful. Maybe I will have to see you hurt and wasting away years from now. Maybe hope is illogical and asking for more hurt. Maybe.

I don’t know what’s in the future.

But I do know that living within me is a fire. You can throw buckets of water and despair at me all day long, but you will not quench this flame. You won’t even touch it.

So you see, by definition it is impossible for you to be a lost cause.

I won’t be letting go anytime soon. Maybe I'm being stubborn and blinding myself with all this hope, but that's ok. Somethings are just worth it. Some people are just worth it. You underestimate yourself constantly. You underestimate the work that He is doing and will do in you.

You're worth this. All of it. Whether you think so or not.